How am I gonna do this?

Trip was great but I am so happy to be back here. I could not concentrate following my signs while I was on the road. I feel I am off the track. I felt so good when I was here in August but now I am so nervous about everything. Am i gonna survive? How am I gonna find a way? Am I ready to write? Really? All the signs says YES! But I am not so confident about it. Well I decided to write when i come back from my vacation so I must do it. My auntie and I read destiny book of astrology and it said. "you have everything you need inside of me. All I need is stop daydreaming and satisfy but it, and make something so that people can benefit from your ideas and thoughts." I was daydreamer since I was little, I have no talent of drawing, math, sports anything that was in school subject but I was born to be daydream and it was proved by astrology. My mother used to say, "Stop daydreaming and do what you have to do." Her timing of telling me was just 20 some years off but I guess she was right. So I have to make something visual now. The only thing i can think of is writing. I have no passion of craft or visual art but I love writing and well I got white feather from my husband. It is a good reason to write.