One day this will be meaningful

I am writing this for future me. Right now, I am nobody for myself. I am a baby who came out near death. But I was saved. I did not know what to do about baby me, because if I survive, it means that loooong journey will start. Something that is so new, unknown, unplanned, and so exciting. and if I die, it means my dream dies. I came out so weak and so small but I was saved. And tell you the truth, I did not want to me to die. As much as I was scared to raise myself, I wished not to be gone. This is a hard road to go through but I did my first step to accept birth of me. She is weak, she is small, she is almost invisible but she is there. I cannot ignore her, she is my child. I am using this blog to write my growth chart. One day it will all come together, I know well, I have to trust. My dream, my intuition, my astrology chart. This is a fun experiment and one day all parts of me and random writing of mine in this massive web will come together.
I decided to pursue this when I had my baby dream. I am not quite sure what kind of writing I want to do so instead of choosing one kind, I decided to do all kind of experiment on the Internet. Maybe I will know what I need to write. Writing is what I loved since I was child. I have more challenge now. I am Japanese. I know my English is not good but I cannot express what I want to express in Japanese. So, I accept how bad my grammar is and still write.
I love my new born child. She is nobody for anybody but so precious to me. One day someone will see this besides me.